Throughout my academic career in the collegiate level, I was a passionate worker but at the same time I was working to make a name for myself for the sake of fame and popularity. Towards the end of 2020 I was having unexpected struggles with my lab work, and I was not able to get the results I was looking for. As I endured failure after failure, I was dealing with a lot of frustration which was exacerbated by the realization that I was not on track with the personal timeline I stored in mind. Along with frustration came confusion, doubt, and helplessness since I couldn’t figure out what was going on and I felt like I had no one to turn to. Collectively, these feelings of frustration and confusion led to severe depression and anxiety that crippled me to a state misery. A few months later I resolved the issues I encountered in lab; however, rather than feeling exuberant like I finally passed the hump, I instead felt like the damage was already done and there was nothing to be proud of. I felt like I was failure and since I was pursuing success that seemed unattainable, I started to question the purpose of my existence.
One day I researched how to eliminate neck pains and saw meditation as an option; simultaneously in the opposite living room, I heard meditation being suggested from the TV. Since I both read and heard meditation being suggested at the same time, meditation presented itself as a sign for me to follow. Prior to starting meditation, I didn’t know what to expect; all I was trying to gain was happiness and confidence. Little did I realize though that I was about to pursue something much bigger that transcended my imagination. I never considered myself as a spiritual person, I neither had any religious beliefs nor put that much thought into life after death. I was lectured on truth and how it was known as God, Buddha, or Allah, and most importantly, how it exists within our own mind. Subsequently, a meditation method for finding truth within our mind was described to me. I was surprised and somewhat skeptical about what had been told to me, nevertheless I gave the method a shot and tried it out. As I meditated and discarded the images that were constantly in my mind, I began feeling liberated and realized that our true meaning is to find truth within. My neck pain started to vanish as my stress dissipated and I was regaining confidence, happiness, and energy. I became greatly passionate towards truth when I realized that many of my hobbies and interests were related to truth, I was on a full-on mission to becoming enlightened.
My excitement towards truth made me feel alive, but my curiosity ended up contradicting the method that allows you to find truth as I was constantly thinking about truth as opposed to eliminating the thoughts that blocks truth within.
I was trying to figure out who is my true self and what would my true self do which led to confusion; furthermore, I was discontent with the circumstances I was in as things did not go according to plan. I found myself going through hard times once again, but despite the despair, I continued to meditate daily. As I meditated, I realized that my intentions were selfish as I was only trying to advance myself while leaving my loved ones behind. I began looking at my life more realistically and realized I had lost sight of the values of hard work, discipline, and resiliency. I started simplifying my life and getting back to the basics of working hard. I went back to where I started from but with a whole new perspective. I work to accomplish tasks, but I understand that time, effort, and patience are required to make it happen. I meditate but I don’t have a deadline for finding truth, all I know is that if keep following the method on a consistent basis then I will come closer to finding it. I try to keep life simple and not overthink. These perspectives have allowed me to regain stability and move forward without getting discouraged.
Throughout this whole journey I am beyond thankful to Seuseungnim for creating and spreading this meditation method. I can’t thank my meditation instructors, Sun and Soon, enough for their unconditional support and believability in me. No matter what I’ve said or how I’ve felt, these instructors have devoted themselves at the highest commitment to helping me and others find truth and live a truly gratuitous life. If you ever want to become free from your negative minds, become your optimal self, and live a truly happy life, join us, and meditate.
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